"I Will Still Love You, Lord"

While decorating our Christmas Tree the other afternoon we had "Facing the Giants" on.  We hadn't seen it since watching it with our Youth Group kids about 2 years ago.  We still remembered the basic story, but it was really nice to actually watch it again.


One of the many stories the movie touches on is the main character and his wife's struggle with infertility.  I remembered that the couple had been trying for a long time and had no success.  The wife encouraged her husband to go to his doctor to see if anything was wrong.  A few scenes later, the main character was shown in his doctor's office listening to the doctor tell him that he was incapable of having children.


I won't spoil the ending because I highly recommend watching the movie.  Let's just say that God does an amazing work in their lives.  Before this though, the wife (after thinking she might be pregnant) makes an appointment with her doctor to see if she is pregnant.  Music plays as you see a nurse tell her that the test came back negative.  She starts to cry and heads out to her car.  Pausing just as she's about to get in, she looks towards the sky just as the music fades and says, "I will still love you, Lord.  I will still love you."


My husband and I have never doubted that we're supposed to be parents, but God's never made it exactly clear how that will happen and when...and we're okay with not knowing that.  After all, time will tell.


Tonight, leaves us saying that we will still love Him.


You see, we learned the results of my husband's tests today.  We sat and listened as our doctor told us that there was nothing.  His count is zero.


"What does that mean?" we asked.  His results are similar to a man who had had radiation damage or a vasectomy.  How is that possible?  How can a perfectly healthy 30-year-old man have a count of zero?


Our doctor would like to see him come in again to a different lab and re-take the test.  We are praying that the results were just a fluke.  It is common procedure for a re-test when results like this show up and God-willing they will be different next time around.


If the re-test comes back with the same results, we will go on from there to more fertility specialists who can advise us further.


We know there is amazing technology out there now to help couples like us and who knows what the next few weeks will hold?


All we know is that no matter what, we will still love our Lord.